Some Days Are Different

Am gasit asta la un moment dat somewhere on the web. Si azi pare o zi buna sa apara si la mine

20 de Motive pt care ii sunt datoare mamei:

1. Mama m-a invatat SA APRECIEZ O TREABA BINE FACUTA:“Daca vreti sa va omorati intre voi, mergeti afara. De-abia am terminat de facut curat!”
2. Mama m-a invatat ce e RELIGIA: “Roaga-te sa iasa pata aia din covor!”
3. Mama m-a invatat ce e LOGICA: “Pentru ca asa am zis eu, de-aia!”
4. Mama m-a invatat MAI MULTA LOGICA: “Daca cazi de pe hinta si iti rupi gatul, nu te mai iau cu mine in oras!”
5. Mama m-a invatat ce e IRONIA: “Plangi in continuare, si o sa-ti dau eu motive de plans!”
6. Mama m-a invatat ce e CONTORSIONISMUL: “Uita-te la murdaria de pe ceafa ta!”
7. Mama m-a invatat ce e VREMEA: “Camera ta arata de parca a trecut o tornada prin ea!”
8. Mama m-a invatat ce e IPOCRIZIA:“Daca ti-am zis o data, ti-am zis de un milion de ori: Nu exagera!”
9. Mama m-a invatat despre CICLICITATEA VIETII: “Eu te-am facut,eu te omor!”
10. Mama m-a invatat despre SCHIMBAREA COMPORTAMENTULUI: “Nu te mai comporta ca taica-tau!”
11. Mama m-a invatat ce e INVIDIA: “In lume sunt milioane de copii mai putin norocosi care nu au parintii la fel de minunati cum ai tu”
12. Mama m-a invatat ce e ASTEPTAREA: “Asteapta numai pana ajungem acasa!…”
13. Mama m-a invatat ce inseamna A PRIMI: “…O sa ti-o primesti cand ajungem acasa!”
14. Mama m-a invatat ce e UMORUL: “Cand o sa-ti tai degetele de la picioare jucandu-te cu masina de tuns iarba, sa nu alergi plangand la mine”
15. Mama m-a invatat CUM SA DEVIN UN ADULT: “Daca nu mananci legume, nu o sa mai cresti niciodata”
16. Mama m-a invatat ce e GENETICA: “Esti exact ca taica-tau”
17. Mama m-a invatat despre ARBORELE MEU GENEALOGIC: “Inchide usa dupa tine. Ti se pare ca te-ai nascut intr-un cort?”
18. Mama m-a invatat ce e INTELEPCIUNEA: “Cand o sa fi de varsta mea, o sa intelegi…”
19. Si preferata mea, mama m-a invatat ce e JUSTITIA: “Intr-o buna zi, o sa ai si tu copii. Si sper ca o sa fie exact ca si tine”
20. Mama… pentru ca oricum ar fi ea, e tot MAMA!

 

System Error

Incep sa se strecoare usor gandul ca am gresit. Mai grav, vine pe neasteptate, fara sa-l caut. Adevarul din pragul usii.

Sunday morning I’m waking up
Can’t even focus on a coffee cup
Don’t even know whose bed I’m in
Where do I start?
Where do I begin?

Why does it always rain on me?!

Mail pe care nu am avut inca curaj sa-l trimit. Decizii pe care inca nu am avut curaj sa le spun cu voce tare. Imi doresc tare mult sa fi fugit atunci cand am avut ocazia. Exista momente cand stii ca lupta e pierduta. Pentru mine momentul ala e deja ieri. Iar acum ma tot lovesc de toti peretii si nu gasesc usa. Dar sunt doar sase. Trebuie sa dau de nenorocita aia de usa odata si-odata. Si de data asta am sa fug, am sa evadez, am sa scap, de tot, de tot, de tot, de tot.

As Distant Cities Fade Away

What if there is actually just one moment? A moment to be happy for your accomplishments, a moment to admit that you were wrong, a moment to give, a moment to take, a moment to ask for forgiveness, a moment to fall in love, a moment to be broken. What if you were looking in the wrong direction when that moment came?

A man that can still smile with his eyes. A man that can kneel and still make you feel small, small, small. A man that have seen them all and can still stand straight. Thank you for all the days when you make me look at myself and see things different.

It’s always 5 o’clock somewhere

”  Cu glasul intunecat,cu aerul imbufnat
Orice numai sa ma vezi,plecat. ” (Cea mai frumoasa zi – Alexandru Andries)

Thank you for walking away those days. I’ve seen the bigger picture.

It’s so so so sad that you’ll never learn to say “Stay”!

pieces

“What do you care whether ’tis I
Or other, face of clay?

In human sphere of narrow lore
May that your luck will hold,
As I remain for ever more
In my eternal cold.”

(“The Legend of the Evening Star”- M. Eminescu)

 

Shhhh. There’s still something in my mind. Maybe it was too much. I needed a proof. And I got just the opposite. Maybe it is just wrong. Completely wrong.

into

This was so easy. I don’t know how I didn’t see it earlier. Now I just need to find the way out. There must be one, another one.

Broken

Do you know that feeling?! Do you?! It’s cold in November. It’s almost winter. November is cold. That short moment when you are trying to find the keys to your door. You can still feel the sour taste, and the smoke. And the cold. You walk in. In the dark. You don’t turn on the light. Maybe, maybe if you stay like that long enough everything will fade away. Suddenly, you feel trapped. You take off your clothes, thinking that this will set you free. Just the dark, and the cold, and you are still choking. You can feel the water coming from everywhere. Why are you trying to wash your feelings away?! Drops of water hit you from all sides. You’re trapped in your body, in your mind. You are your cage. You’re running, and your thoughts are running faster than you. Now it’s just the water. Falling. The drops of water hitting you and the bitter taste on your lips. The cold can’t freeze you, the water can’t wash you, and the smoke can’t embrace you.

Maybe I was just wrong for a very long long long time, maybe there was no point to all the planning, and the hopes, and the dreams. Maybe we were doomed. Maybe I was a dreamer. Cause I still am.

No more silence. From now on nothing else will be born. We’ll live cold winters, and we’ll pretend the world is full of colors.  Everything will be noisy, loud, and strident. Cause  who could stand anymore to be left alone in the same room with his thoughts?! There will be nothing left to die for. Just to live, a life in a continuous winter. We won’t look for the pieces of our broken souls. We’ll deny they’ve ever existed. We’ll replace them with cold, and water, and smoke. We’ll put all our energy to forget that there was once a fire. And people will fill our lives with joy and passion and dreams and wishes. And we’ll never look back. Cause how could you look back to all that you’ve lost?! How could you not just die in that moment knowing that you’ve chosen to give up?! How could you live when all that’s left is cold, and water, and smoke?!

nopti.noptii.noptiii.noptiiii

Without Happy Endings

 

Too bad I have chosen to put myself in the box. So far.